Crying Manly Tears – The Confession of a Makkun Fan?

I love anime songs for some reason. I blame my weak will power under attack during a period in my life when I was impressionable (freshman in college).

I’ve spent some time thinking about it on various occasions–and often while listening to anison while doing that. The conclusion, every time, was pretty much that music (and creative expression as an outlet of my generally repressed personality) was a growing part of who I am. I find myself surrounded by it and it’s a black morass, an endless pit of artistic swirls paving the fun, enjoyable, but fruitless sinkhole of time and energy. Music is the language of the soul, but where is my soul going?

And I’m not alone. Things like MySpace speak volumes of the similar spiral towards destruction traced by countless others. Having some idea how a recording are made in this day and age we all question the authenticity of artistic expression in its most common mode–radio and CD recordings. The simple act of making music is mixed into the industry of producing music celebrities. It’s the timeless dilemma of a pursuit of truth and beauty.

Still, I believe people have this innate programming that makes us recognize truth as confronted by it, and praise those that are beautiful. Is why I cry manly tears of hotblooded courage while watching a JAM Project live? Is this why Heart Shaped Chant is so enthralling (and it’s not even my favorite Nana song)? Is that why XKCD is my favorite webcomic for some time? Or find fellow Asian-kins quitting their jobs in search of a living by using good ajax code and promoting the indie sort of fun? Is this why people care about that open letter?

It’s silly. But it’s about soul. Maybe that’s what made me a Makkun fan in the first place. Being an oversea Makkun fan was hard as for a long time she was pretty much just your typical Star Child artist. Seeing her music evolve was interesting as she switched producers and tried to inject more of her personality in her works (at the cost of fans, probably). Eventually she slowly switched from a typical idol kind of promotion to a rock musician type of promotion. Some of it was corny but some of it was pretty fun too. It’s like she’s actually serious about this, but from my outsider perspective I don’t really know anything concrete.

But I think the anison scene can use more people like her. And people like the rest of JAM Project. And people who are willing to come together for passion and also for a living. I’m not sure why people like myself react to them the way I do. I’m not sure if anison is for people who are still kids inside. I’m not even sure if anison is something to be taken seriously. But for the passionate, the young-at-heart and the responsible folks out there, if they have a blast doing the thing they love and still make enough money to support themselves and be responsible human beings, well, then all the power to them.

And yeah, that is why the anison scene can use more Animelo Lives, as a corporate testimony of a meeting of spirits, of fire-branded souls screaming for joy at a festival of epic awesomeness.

6 Responses to “Crying Manly Tears – The Confession of a Makkun Fan?”

  • houkoholic

    Anison is serious business yo.

    I’m looking forward to JAM Project’s world tour just to see how far they can spread the passion behind anison.

  • omo

    I am not holding my breath, but at least by next summer I will be sufficiently funded to travel to their North American show no matter where they have it (maybe even in Mexico?). I just cannot miss the first Makkun US live and still have any kind of cred ;_;

    Hearing from the Brazilian-language folks, their show down there rocks the house just as much. I have no doubt that they will rock the house no matter where they go.

  • NegativeZero

    xkcd should be *everyone’s* favourite webcomic.

  • omo

    I can’t help myself for thinking that loving geek is not everyone’s bag. But you are right.

  • Star

    I understand very much your feelings. I feel the same your passion, but for Matsumoto Rica. And I love very much all the JAM Members too. I’m waiting anxiously for the schedule of the JAM Project World Flight 2008…

  • Ginga

    Hey, I know exactly what you’re going through. I’ve long felt that Makkun has a bit more “soul” in her music than you see with typical anison musicians … and groups like JAM Project just burst with that passion … the meeting of minds to produce not just songs for anime … but real MUSIC that speaks of the true artistic intention of the anime it’s produced for AS WELL as the artist (something I find lacking these days). I’ve been on board with Makkun since 1999, and I have watched her grow over the years. Some people found her change in style off-putting, but I was always amazed at how she tried to do different things, not settling into a rut but expanding her art into areas that don’t seem to “fit the mold”. If you look at the progression of her last three albums, you can truly appreciate how the style changes but the music remains HERS! God Speed has a techno-rock feel, airy but intense, evolution mixes genres but feels solid throughout, including the ballads, Masami Life feels like a salute to the past, bringing back some of the classic Makkun sound but weaving it in with the new style of which I’ve become so fond.

    … In other words, MAKKUN FOVEVER, BITCHES!


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